The Eternal Shore

Love is a powerful thing to behold, Mira.  The only true land in an ever-shifting sea.  It can change everything.  You don't need an old sorcerer to tell you that. Meaning and joy is precious amid life's roiling chaos.  Love lifts the wings of angels and bends the arc of dreaming towards deep and genuine gratitude.  We've both felt it.  With lovers, family and friends.  We hear about its power all the time, don't we?   Sometimes, in our darker moments, we view it as little more than a cliché.  An empty sentiment.  But it really is powerful.  Its beauty is extraordinary.  Not only can love change the way we live, but also the way we die.  Dear one, I want you to know that as eternal spirits of divine provenance each of us is a constellation of stories and living legends.  Dreams, poems and songs.  We are bright with treasure and depth.  All of us.  It’s cold and dark without those stories, Mira. Without love or a legacy. Believe me.  I know the difference now between what it means to plead or prosper.  In life and in magic.  However, I didn't always think like this.  As a boy I didn't yet understand these things.  You see, I carried a great psychic burden within me when I was young.  Many of us do, but mine was a terrible and very particular kind of knowledge.  I knew exactly how I was going to die.  I had foreseen it in several visions, over many years, and it disturbed me in ways I can’t convey here.  It was a terrible thing to behold.  I knew that I was going to drown one day.  Accidentally, of course. But still a relatively young man with little in the way of art, romance or legacy left in his wake.  I knew it would be a tragic way to go.  Drowning just off a foreign coast with so much life left to live, unknown and unloved.  But even as a boy I forced myself to see a kind of vicious poetry in it.  I was a wounded soul even at that age, and I did love the water with all my heart.  So, I tried to tell myself that perhaps it would be fitting if those visions came to pass.  Hear me, Apprentice.  As a mortal I've always felt deeply connected to the water.  I feel at peace near rivers and the sea. In the rain.  As a fledgling sorcerer I tried to tell myself that maybe it wouldn't be so bad – to perish in that way, at the mercy of the thing I loved.  But that was a lonely child’s awful madness.  I fought against it, Mira.  With all the strength I had.  I didn’t want my sadness to be the author of that future accident.  And so I rejected that awful fatalism.  Clairsentience is such a strange, multifaceted thing.  A blessing and a curse.  Knowing certain things before they happen can greatly disturb the psyche if you’re not careful.  On the one hand it can create a sense of bewildered powerlessness at watching events unfold just as you saw them, but on the other it can burden you with a sense of crushing responsibility for every unpleasant thing foreseen.  Luckily, I was able to alter that trajectory.  Through acts of love and service I have outlived what could have been a tragic end.  I was willing to take a long, hard look at myself.  I survived my late twenties, and that foreign coast.  I did this by attempting to really know myself.  To understand my fears and motivations.  I gave myself to my art and my relationships.  I made sure that my intentions were genuine, Mira.  Despite my flaws.  I tried to care as deeply as possible about the finer points of living, and dreaming.  Avoiding that potential destruction wasn't really a matter of luck though.  I think it was a combination of courage and grace.  I had to meet my Father half way, across an ocean of doubt.  It’s how both sons and daughters prosper in the end.  I had to believe in a future, and myself.  I had to give my very best to the world and the people I loved.  And then, finally, I had to have faith that a higher intelligence would carry me the rest of the way.  Through storms and over raging seas.  And it did.  He did.  Through the grace of God I was able to change what would have been, and my soul is all the better for it.  I have a life worth living now.  I’m deeply and truly grateful for that.  I still love the water, of course.  I always will.  But it’s no longer my tomb.  Rather, it's my meditation.  An ever-shifting sea.  I'm no longer lost.  Now I know what it means to leave a legacy.  To truly invest in friendships and family.  Even at a distance.  Now I can always find you, and the others, and the shore.  Mira, I want to thank you for everything you and the girls have done for me.  Inspiration and hope of which you know little.  Yet you gifted me with treasure.  Depths, and light.  I want you to know that you are so much more than a sorcerer’s first incantation.  You were never just named for mere progeny in some playwright’s final folio.  No, your real name means something far grander in the shining tongue.  In those days before the Fall.  Anda, Mira - "Behold, a Miracle."  A miracle beheld.

A Sacred Heart

It used to be everything, the heart.  Brighter than stars.  Older than time.  Larger than life itself.  What happened?  Did we fall of our own volition?  Or were we coerced?  Were we tempted with power in exchange for darkening our own dreaming?  Did wraiths come crawling from broken mirrors, offering up boundlessness for blood?  I know what I believe, because I was there.  And let me tell you, it was a devil's bargain.  A lie.  A demon's notion of freedom and nothing more.  I should know.  I myself was once a demon, and an angel.  I was even once a king.  In stories and legend.  I have many epithets but my true name isn't known here.  However, you can call me Kasi.  It means many things.  Shining One, chief among them.  But I'm not a fallen star.  At least, not entirely.  I like to think of myself as a mediator.  A teacher and a poet. That probably sounds like utter hubris to modern ears; declaring one's depths and antiquity with such boldness.  But we live in a ravaged world where spiteful wraiths attempt daily to tear all agency from the human soul.  From the heart itself.  I for one resist.  As do my brethren.  It isn't hubris to speak the truth.  Even with a poet's tongue.  It isn't a lack of humility.  Anyone who has been hung, raped or burned knows far too much about humility.  And survival.  Oh, we know.  We know the value of things too.  A kiss.  A kind word.  A sense of purpose.  You see, the soul speaks in the language of art.  Symbols and signs, poems and songs.  And art is the oldest magic.  You want to know about true spell-craft?  A sorcerer's greatest weapon?  You need look no further than the innermost.  The holy of holies.  The temple of divine fire.  It exists within each one of us, and dark forces have attempted for aeons to snuff it out.  But an aeon is little more than a single breath to an artist, and still we kindle that fire.  It is our most vital of tasks.  We might tend to other things when needed, of course.  Like exorcism, healing, or slaying monsters – but safeguarding the Innermost Light is paramount.  This is why my name is shining, I suppose.  This is why Varanasi still sings at the shore, in the fictions of that very same light.  They have been singing for a thousand years.  Of Laksmi, mothers old and young.  And of girls without name, lost to both history and legend.  But those singers still moor the boats and weave the baskets like the heart was never lost, or threatened. They tell wondrous tales as if we never fell at all.  They kindle, and warm themselves by the fire upon the waters.  An eternity, a breath, a mirror of unbroken silver.  Because it truly is everything, the heart.  Brighter than stars.  Older than time.  Larger than life itself.

In New Light

 

It feels like the light is beginning to change.  I'm always aware of the subtle shifts but I'm making more of an effort to notice.  To pay closer attention.  Few of us are ever as present as we would like to be.  But in the secret romance of ourselves we're often acutely aware of the fullness; the potentiality and strangeness of each moment.  In art we rise to the changing light.  Life in reflection.  Subtly reordered, remixed and re-written to serve some intangible horizon.  The shifting needle of our inner compass, towards an often-unspoken goal.  I suppose that's because true depth and atmosphere lives not just in the light, but in how we interpret and shape that light.  After all, without the interplay of shadow and light the eye sees nothing.  Without contrast we are blind.  There is a singular practicality to the numinous, when we understand what we’re working with.  It takes courage to see, and kindness to grasp another’s way of seeing – especially when it differs from our own.  But I believe we are souls built for adventure.  Placed here as part of a beautifully intricate design.  Sometimes I wonder, like now, about the hidden glyphs inscribed along the edge of dusk.  Secret writings concealed in the strange corona of a midnight sun.  At first there's a kind of gravitas to the grey skies.  Just before blue begins to haunt the canvas.  And I adore it, the calm of that pre-twilight.  The cusp before the cusp.  As a child I wanted to somehow capture that end of daylight, or else live in the dusk forever.  I'm still like that, I suppose.  Obsessed with the twilit realm.  The in-between.  It's the only place that ever truly felt like home.  Mediums and psychics often talk about the afterlife as place of eternal sun.  A shining realm of vivid beauty, divine grace and collective thought.  I've seen that world.  It isn't vague or insubstantial.  It is breathtaking, and realer than real.  I've seen the shadowlands too.  The dim and dark places created from the collective minds of the distorted, and the damned.  Lost souls.  The corrupted, sadistic ones.  Oh, I've seen that place.  I've felt it.  Avernus is very real.  But there are no children there.  No children in hell.  Not even one.  That knowledge brings me comfort beyond measure.  The sheer grace and wisdom of the light.  The living intelligence that men call God.  He loves us and walks with us every single day.  Friends, I want you to know that it’s only here in this in-between place that children suffer.  Not because of cosmic indifference, but because of the wickedness of men and the wraiths who rule them.  The entities that whisper and possess.  You see, this earthly realm is far darker than the darkest regions of the afterlife.  But not brighter.  What I mean when I say this is that here everything is possible.  Not so on the other side.  Beyond the veil, all things are held in perfect safety.  Clarity, balance.  Resolve.  Grace is given but character is earned, and the other side is forged by the very truth of this character.  Our emotions, thoughts and intent.  I mean to say, you cannot hide who or what you are in the realms beyond death.  In neither the summer-lands nor the shadow-places.  You cannot cloak yourself from others.  Except here.  Here you can move about unseen.  Unnoticed and unsuspected.  This is why the wisest men of all cultures know that the Devil is very real.  Regardless of his myriad forms and names, he is always equated with deceit.  And desecration.  This earthly realm is a blending of both worlds, of course.  The darkness and the light.  Despite all this, I don't see many mediums or psychics discussing this threshold place.  This liminal state we call mortal life.  This world of ever-dusk and ever-dawn.  Is this mortal realm the true purgatory?  More a priceless and sometimes terrifying gift, I would suggest.   This gift from our maker requires maturity and the highest spiritual regard.  It is the gift of free will, of course.  Choice and self-determination.  Some men abuse it in the most typical of ways.  There are also those who use such will to knowingly mock and desecrate the very notion of God.  These are the true dark ones.  The Damned.  Apostles of the Abyss.  For they have no use nor desire for forgiveness, or redemption.  These individuals are rare, but they do exist.  You know they do.  Their hearts are obsidian and their appetites unspeakable.  But I'm not here to discuss the banality and ugliness of genuine evil.  There are greater things occurring right now.  New light is always possible, even in the darkest of times.  Please, dear ones, do not be discouraged by the chaos all around.  There is joy here too.  A great and wonderous joy.  It moves as we move, dances as we dance.  It is the reflection and sustenance of us all.  Family, friendship, mutual affection.  Countless works of divinely inspired art.  Music of the spheres, channelling the very nuances of heaven.  You see, this physical world is a stage, a place of absolute freedom where any tale can be told and enacted.  A world where actions have great consequence. This is the realm our maker made for us.  A complex work of incomparable majesty.  And though satanic forces have tried to turn this majesty into a place of ruin and filth, our Father in Heaven is still the Creator.  Love shall always win the day.  Why?  Because love is truth.  The highest intelligence.  Darkness, however, must be born from greed and sadism.  It is twisted, broken.  Summoned into existence through acts of desecration.  Evil is the corruption of truth, of love.  It’s an inversion.  A sickness, and nothing more.  Remember this, my friends.  Recognise how feeble is a fallen angel when measured against limitless power and grace.  I've seen that bright world beyond the veil.  I've felt it.  I wept at its beauty.  You needn’t believe a word of this, of course.  That choice is yours.  But our divine Father adores us.  He loves us beyond all measure.  And he wants each one of us to know the very best of ourselves, and of Him.  Religion and spirituality.  Kinship and community.  Poetry, music and song.  Laughter and love.  These are the things that change the light, that brighten and deepen our understanding.  These are the things that make sacred this bewildering realm of contrasts and opposites.  So, let us continue to become as we were intended – beings of true perception and sweetest regard.  Souls built for adventure, especially when held in concert with other kind and courageous hearts.

A Scarlet Stone

Elah Elahin, it was once whispered.  Long ago in Syrian temples and byways.  And further afield. In broken tongues both native and learned.  Koine, Aramaic, Hebrew.  Most revered, it was said. Theos.  Dreamer of all dreams.  Scribes and diarists knew well the power of those words.  Many still do.  I would count myself among them if I hadn't fallen so far.  But, in truth, we all fell.  Like Kayin of the scarlet stone, weeping desperately at what he had done.  What he could not undo. Learned men blemished with violence, ambition or pride.  Literacy is never a guarantee of humility or moral conviction.  It must be earned, believe me.  Men often think their stories are the only stories and have little knowledge or regard for the shifting sands of narrative.  Telling and retelling.  Retelling and re-imagining.  But I know the quiet inflections within and between the words.  I'm not the only one.  Children raised at the skirts and by the iron wits of their mothers.  Imma, Elahin.  This heretic speaks.  Sons apprenticed by the hands and watchful will of their fathers.  Abba, Elahin.  This heretic speaks again.  You have it all wrong, dear ones.  You see, many of you think the law is everything.  Even today you cannot fully comprehend the deceptions and travesties of State occurring all around you.  But men have always questioned the law.  Even so-called mosaic law.  What is just and right is not always what is legal.  Even kings must be questioned.  Siblings held to account.  Whether brother, sister or twin.  As it was with Kayin and Hevel; sacral offspring of the Havah, and the Adamah.  Keepers and covenants.  We all know a little something about that among the elect. Within the inner circles.  Don't we, Fallen?  I am not a king, though I sometimes dream of kings.  Nor am I a prophet, though I've often imagined angels and dragons locked in celestial combat.  I'm not a hero either, but I do wish to provide a light.  To be a way-finder for the lost and lonely.  Yet what I am without question is a brother, a sister, and a twin.  As it was with Kayin, granted the blessing of eternal regret by his Maker.  Perhaps the truth of these words continues to elude you, dark ones.  Regret is something many of you are still unfamiliar with.  Shameless, abject.  And while you indulge in wraith-ravage I still muse upon the spoken myriad, of course.  Those multivalent tongues of Eden, hidden beneath deceit and distort.  Mother, Father, Creator.   Imma, Abba, Elahin.  Writers often think about these things, I suppose.  Even those as hated as I am.  The heretic speaks, Roma.  I hope you still remember me.  The one you deemed so dangerous.  I was called a dark angel by the worst warmongers of the Empire.  Cold-blooded propagandists and profiteers.  Men who, in their absolute lust for power, sought to control acuity's eye.  To one day storm the very gates of Heaven and snatch the helm of imagining from Elah himself.  Demon-prince, you dared to call me.  Antichrist.  Fallen One.  The sheer gall.  Because I knew what you were.  What you are.  And now you fracture my stories and re-write my letters.  How dare you?  But I tell you now, dear ones, some of these men are beyond shame.  These dark disciples.  They have made their very existence an affront to Creation itself.  I suppose it's the difference between conjuration and carpentry.  My brother makes things of real value, you see.  While some of us get lost in the vanity of attempting to corral and fetter spirits beyond our comprehension.  Spirits far darker than we can understand.  But you cannot dominate darkness with more darkness.  You cannot banish ignorance with a lack of light.  Take it from someone who knows.  Someone who once foolishly tried that very thing.  Tell me, Fallen, in your supposed wisdom; do you know who my brother is?  There are carpenters and conjurers.  Do you know which brother I speak of?  No?  Then I shall tell you a secret.  A frightening, beautiful secret.  The heresies of men sing with a sign.  The first mark of both messenger and mortal.  The most ancient symbol of crossing.  The earliest sign.  Kayin himself bears that sign.  Saltire.  Crux decussata.  Cruciform.  There are even stories that say Andros was the First-Called.  First drowned, then wakened, then devoted among the talmidim.  I once craved devotion like that, in the earliest days.  Those days of wound and weeping.  I remember coloured lights shimmering in the night sky above me.  Those polar lights that men speak of in the icy, northern places.  I recall scarlet stones and scented gardens beneath the stars.  Mountains and cities soon to rise.  Yes, I dreamt like that.  As storytellers do.  I was also forgiven in that same breadth of mythmaking.  Wandering, writing.  Seeking penance.  I know first-hand how blessed a thing is genuine forgiveness.  An act of wonderous grace.  But forgiveness is only the beginning.  It is not the process of healing in and of itself.  Nor is it acknowledgement of our shadows, or the insight that comes with wrestling with those demons.  Love will fall short if we have learned nothing of our errors.  Our sins.  He who slays his brother slays himself.  And so, the heretic cries, "Let me have empathy, Father.  Let me know the truth of this sign, and its weight upon those who I have wronged.  Those who have been bruised, broken or butchered by my ignorance.  Let me know as they know.  Let me feel it.”  Such a notion is terrifying, of course.  And transformative.  To allow yourself to be haunted.  In hopes that all malice – even simple, callous disregard – might one day be educated out of the human heart. That such darkness might truly become a thing of the past on this road toward eternal light.

A Dream of Kings

 

Dreaming can hurt sometimes in this dystopian realm. It really can. Leading us away from our path rather than closer to it. Even warriors and kings can fall prey to a darker kind of dreaming. Doubt, fear and resentment. Kara, my love, I don’t want you to ever be held hostage by those thoughts and feelings. They can quickly become a nightmare. A private hell of personal pain. I know what it is to feel lost like that, my songstress. To feel utterly haunted. Like your inner world is nothing like the world of others. I’ve often felt like I was forced to live my early life in twilight, at the shadow’s edge, while all around me others got to walk openly in the sun. It hurts me to see anyone suffering like that, because I know the toll it can take. But it hurts most with those I love. So, princess, consider these words pre-emptive. A kiss from a guardian and friend. Our dreams are full of private imagery and metaphors. Part religion, part poetry. With enough insight these inner worlds of quiet grief can be grasped by those around us, but sometimes they simply don’t care enough to try. And I get it, of course. People are afraid of what they don’t understand. But some of us don’t have a choice. When we close our eyes we see strange stories unfold. Myths and legends truer than they know. Or we hear melodies and fragments of holy songs yet unsung. It hurts when a soul is gifted with this kind of vision and nobody cares to look. I struggled too with this when I was young. I didn’t want to frighten people with the things I’d seen. I didn’t want to push them away. So I hid my strange dreaming. I covered my eyes. Any form of clairsentience is unsettling to the small-minded. I’ve been called all sorts of names because I know things I shouldn’t. Deceiver, occultist, devil’s ilk. What hurts the most is that I was never any of those things. I was just a child trying to understand this gift. Or curse, as I often thought of it back then. A lonely little boy who could often peer into the unseen realms in ways that others couldn’t. I learned very quickly to keep my mouth shut. The funny thing is I had always believed in God. In love, kindness and courage. I still do. People like me have always been called sorcerers, magicians and witches. Throughout the ages we have been hunted, enslaved and burned by dark forces pretending to be paragons of light.  Yes, I know how to change certain things, how to warp the visible spectrum, but I am an artist first and foremost. A mystic and a poet. I have no interest in using such abilities to control anyone. Those vicious, unseen wraiths still hate me for trying to spread compassion and hope. Let me make myself absolutely clear. I do not traffic with the damned. Because I know how real a nightmare can become. You see, dreaming isn’t just a passive, frivolous thing we do whilst we sleep. It’s something we’re always doing. It is how we build the manifest, visible world. We walk amidst the fruits of our imagination, always. So, let us walk with faith and grace. I know you already grasp much of this, Kara. But your chevalier wants you to never forget. This is a war of dreaming. A War of Imagination. You have a great purpose in this spiritual battle, my beautiful keeper of song. You have friends and a genuine relationship with your Creator. Our Father. And, you have a sword if you want it. The shining sword of all ages. I was drowning, Kara. In rivers and lakes of despair. The worst times of my entire life. But then I heard you. I saw you. A vision beneath the water. You stayed with me and took my hand. You sang to me. And then you gifted me with divine fire, bringing me back from the brink. I will always love you for that, my angel. My Lady. We both know there is a greater king than all of us. Love is the language of that king, our Father. It’s how he dreamt us into being, and the world.  We are made in his image. So, dream well, my angel. Honour the gifts he gave you. I know you will. Don’t let anyone else define the breadth of your vision or your song.

The King and I

Sometimes I think about the strength it takes to change, or lead. To be a way-finder, or a lantern for the lost. I think of all the little ones standing in that numinous place between worlds. A twilight neither dawn nor dusk. Haunted by expectation. Wondering what it might take to be enough. I think of those sad, frightening moments when a young soul begins to comprehend the savagery of the sensate world. We were all one among those young. Unborn and full of bright conviction. Barely understanding the logic of this vast dreamtime yet sensing the sheer power of its storytelling. The little angel trembles like a butterfly, tiny fingers curling around the hilt of a fractal sword. Drawing forth like a self-birthing chrysalis. Into infinite air. The dreams of a thousand children in the angel's palm. A chorus of sword and stone, arcing endlessly through the myriad. Whosoever, the legends tell. But, in truth, we are all chosen. Each child is special, ever-changing, feeling their way through the dark toward a greater destiny. The anguish only begins when the adults around us forget those moments of metaphor. Elders can be so thoughtless, can't they? Unimaginative and cruel. And so, the butterflies have no choice but to mimic what they see. They doubt the truth of M'ithriin's forge. Or Nimue's waters. They fold their wings away, turning their backs on their birthright.  I too tried to sacrifice my innocence upon the dark altar of the adult world. A faux rites-of-passage we've all endured, some earlier than others. Those moments when we were encouraged to crush our last fairytale-ember until mere ash remained and we silently wept at the loss. A death we mustn't openly grieve, of course. "Put away childish things now. All your heroes are dead, and the new teachers have no need of magic."  Well, I tried to be that child. I tried to internalise those horrifying sentiments. But I couldn't. I don’t think many of us could. Thank God. My memory of the sword was never truly slain. The dreaming cruciform that that cleaved Golgotha. Pulled from the stone of the hill like a kiss from a poet's skull. Excalibur is a promise and a sacrifice. The most loving form of sacrifice. The true royalty of the heart. All poets know it deep down. We tell stories about it still, don't we? That place where fiction and fact intermingle. Where earth and heaven meet, exchanging memories and dreams. Sometimes I think about the strength it takes to lead like that. A lantern on the hill. Reciprocity, aglow for aeons. My dreaming was saved by that kind of love. Peace, but a sword. My innocence safeguarded along with my future. The future of us all, I suspect. And so, I wield the sword despite my fears. I teach where I can through symbol and sign, despite my incomplete knowledge and imperfect grammar. We mustn't be afraid to change or grow. A true way-finder was once just a young prince or princess. A hesitant child trembling at the threshold, armed only with glimpses and stories to fortify them. I do hope these words help you find your way, little ones. All of us, tiny fingers curling around the hilt of a fractal sword. A promise of hope. A legacy of love. That we might be an inspiration to our kinfolk, adding our contribution to this beautiful, wondrous art.

The Raven's Light

Kara, linearity is a lie to an angel.  To a messenger.  A dreamer at the well.  I hope you grasp this by now.  For most people the end comes after the beginning, but not for me.  Not always.  As a psychic you become accustomed to living your life out of sequence.  Intimation, foresight.  Even prophecy.  I've always found myself several steps removed from the natural rhythms of mortal life.  Whether I wanted it or not.  Death, and birth.  They don't happen in quite the way they do for most others.  That's the thing about having second sight, possessing a genuine gift. It makes artists and time-travellers of us all.  I hope I've been able to show you at least glimpses of that reality, Kara.  It's not all smoke & mirrors, my dear.  The magic is quite real.  You don't need a dawn goddess to tell you that.  Not anymore, I hope.  Because the truth is I'm a runaway. Just like she wrote.  I've been running like a fugitive since the raven-sun was born at midnight, before Man gave name or shape to his exteriorised dreaming.  Time, and Space.  This before that, or that before this.  Each moment is unique, Kara.  Every moment sacred, no matter how many times they are rewritten.  My beautiful seamstress, I say these things because I want you to know something true about me.  About all of us.  It might be a truth expressed through fable and fiction – but how else does a poet convey the breadth of themselves to someone they love?  I can set fire to the sky.  I can fold the entire city in the midst of a seething, terrifying hush.  I can warp the continuum itself through the reality-shaping power of consciousness.  However, in the end I must rely on words and stories to make myself truly known.  Just like everyone else.  You're more like me than you realise, Kara.  Or I more like you.  You’ve always been interested in sight, whether second or first.  You’ve always been moved by visions.  You have an eye for beauty, after all.  Form, flow, and all the variables therein.  You've been running for a long time too.  Neither of us will ever truly stop.  But we can modulate our pace.  We can slow down sometimes, pausing to smell the flowers.  To appreciate the little things. Families and friendships.  Mothers, daughters, fathers and sons.  You have always been a winged thing, Kara.  A raven, an artist, a traveller of time.  You've stitched years and birthed worlds aplenty.  Make no mistake.  I know because I've watched you from afar.  Gladdened, admiring and proud.  I even took you to the edge once, in another life.  The very edge of Creation's infinite dreaming.  We sat together before the tempest and watched its shimmering lights. You told me how you expected darkness, and how strange it was that those beautiful colours reminded you of her.  Of both of them.  A life then unlived.  Sisters yet unsung.  Well, you're living it now, my clever girl.  Fully, deeply, and I hope with great relish.  You marvelled when I told you that dreams and memories could change places at the storm's edge.  How I found you all at last, and one day soon at first.  I still remember how you took my hand as we sat there.  Cherish this dream, Kara.  Honour these memories.  They might not come again.