Doublethink lies at the very heart of Ingsoc, since the essential act of the Party is to use conscious deception while retaining the firmness of purpose that goes with complete honesty. To tell deliberate lies while genuinely believing in them, to forget any fact that has become inconvenient, and then, when it becomes necessary again, to draw it back from oblivion for just so long as it is needed, to deny the existence of objective reality and all the while to take account of the reality which one denies -- all this is indispensably necessary. Even in using the word doublethink it is necessary to exercise doublethink.
For by using the word one admits that one is tampering with reality; by a fresh act of doublethink one erases this knowledge; and so on indefinitely, with the lie always one leap ahead of the truth. Ultimately it is by means of doublethink that the Party has been able -- and may, for all we know, continue to be able for thousands of years -- to arrest the course of history.
NIGHTMARES DREAMED AND LIVED
But a nightmare can be an ambiguous thing, especially a state-sponsored nightmare. Do we trust what we see? Or should we attempt to look beneath the surface and intuit the source of its trickery or power? Indeed we should. It's our duty, I feel. Blog post like this one are a way towards that, I hope. As dark as nightmares are, I believe they can sometimes have a happy ending. I would like to believe that places like Room 101 cannot cage us completely, that our spirit is too vast and too ferocious. I hope this to be true. What I can say with conviction is that occasionally a nightmare becomes something more than just a vehicle of horror and estrangement -- bringing us insight and knowledge concerning the deeper realms of the human soul.
THE GOD BEHIND GOD
What happens when we escape the nightmare, even if only briefly? What happens when we see past the lies and manipulation and sense something sacred at our core? What if Gnosticism is correct in its belief that the human race was once a race of creator-beings akin to gods? I wonder if its something that many people dare to consider beyond either vague New Age rhetoric or materialist power fantasies. What sociopath wouldn't want to be a god, after all? But I think this question of our potential divinity goes far, far deeper than that. I think if seriously considered it transforms our comprehension of the universe, our place in it, and life itself.
When all is said and done, we can barely comprehend the material and spiritual cosmos from our tiny little vantage point. How are we ever to comprehend or even imagine our true place in a Gnostic universe? What if the boundary between symbolic and literal godhood is a permeable one? Can we even grasp its implications? And yet, if human beings really do contain some kind of non-local infinity within us -- and all the magick, potential and danger inherent in that -- then perhaps we're capable of understanding and applying far more than we currently realize. Maybe we're not simply worthless biological machines that only wish to rape and kill and dominate. Perhaps we still possess some buried connection, some living link, to the fabled divinity that the Gnostics talked about.