I was such a shy, lonely boy in the realm of the living. Afraid of everything, though I tried to hide my fears. Until that terrible, impossible day when I became a lost boy in the realm of the dead, surrounded by monsters. The worst day. They broke my flesh and my mind, and they almost broke my spirit. They would have succeeded eventually, if not for you. I didn't think anything could hurt that badly. I didn't realise a person could be wounded so deeply, on the inside. I didn't understand how dark the shadow-places could get. But I was just a child, utterly lost in those places.
I'm so much happier now, but I wish I didn't have to feel every single step of this endless journey. Every bittersweet break and fracture as my heart continuously aches for you. I watch these wraiths and their ruin. Like I thought I was. Like I thought I might forever be.
Until I met my friend.
I didn't think I could really be known in that way, or cared for in that way. Only grandmother soothed me without any conditions, before the knowledge of your touch. I wish each story didn't have to be so hauntingly, painfully real. But they are, my love. Too much sadness. Too much truth. But I breathe now, because of you. Even here in this realm of the dead. I carry it with me; your courage. And I know what you still worry about sometimes. But I'll make it right. I'll do whatever it takes, I promise. I'll find her, in every corner of the sky. Night kissing dawn. Indigo holding blue, amid shining stars. I'll go to her, and take her hands. I can't sing very well, but I'll try for the girl who saves me even now. I'll sing a song for sisters and a song of friends. Hate isn't stronger than love. Sadness isn't stronger than hope. You taught me that. We know she's in the bright place. We know she's safe now. But if she's still very sad I'll hold her in my arms. I'll tell her what you did for me. What you did for both of us. And she'll smile. I know she will. I'll fold that smile inside a rosebud and send it back to you. I know you'll feel it, Mia. Upon your wrist. Within your heart. Your Father would be so proud.
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