Artists dream all the time.
Don't we, Kara? Images and sounds, words and letters. Threads that
connect and ties that bind. We dream of
brighter worlds. I believe that with a
little vision we can transform the very fabric of our experience, crafting
beauty from the ordinary. My seamstress, I
hope now you understand that we are forever linked. I'm not separate from you, nor you from me. And yet we are distinct. We have our own paths and our own journeys. Still, I walk beside you always. Do you remember Ephesus, Kara? Or Antioch? I do, or almost do. I am a dreamer after all. A wounded fantasist. Forgive my protean tongue but I've paid a very high price for
storytelling. I nearly lost both my mind
and my life for daring to inspire the broken-hearted towards hope. A simple scribe, a lowly diarist. As I've said elsewhere in these epistles, “Each
feather of Antioch is a word, in every tongue of Man. Languages both
living and dead.” Because we speak now of the heart, Kara, don't we? We speak in earnest poetry. Transformative fictions and images of truth,
if not the truth itself. You see, many
souls today are utterly exhausted, driven half mad by this darkness. A number of them have lost their lanterns,
concerned now only with mere surfaces. Distractions
dark or fair. Pigment and
provenance. Petty tribalism and the supposed
taboos of miscegenation. But the world
now is just as the world then. First-century
foment. Tarsus, and Tyana. I still recall those shadows. A psychopathy that was so apparent, and
growing. All across the earth. Travesties of State. Division and fear. Treasury-wraiths at odds with the spiritual
lives of common folk. All too often I've
seen it. Another lie on another gilded
tongue. "Believe this or that at
great cost to your soul. Ours is the only way and all else is
heresy." Well, I still speak as a
so-called heretic. A dangerous reformer.
We both do, Kara. Little has changed in these temples and
churches. We are still unwelcome even in
our own houses. It's one of life's
bitter ironies that to even be heard here in this cacophonous abyss one must be
well-versed in polemic and politics. To
raise oneself above the din of a thousand heartless strategists. All clamouring for the wealth of the educated
or the blind faith of the illiterate. Attention
is currency after all. Capture someone's
attention, or better, their imagination, and you are a few small steps from
capturing their very soul. A truly dark soul can rally all manner of cultists to commit the most hideous acts in the name of
God. After all, mercenaries need only
the slightest pretence. A banner to march under. As long as they are paid, either in coin or false
absolution of their sins. There are such men of every culture, every religion. Sadly, this is human history. But these are never the ways of noble
men and women. Souls of true character. We both know that, Kara. I hate to speak of other
dreams, other lives. Because you have to
take it on sheer faith. And I'm only a
distant poet. A stranger. Nobody special. But like so many others
we too fell prey to the ignobility of our supposed leaders. They wanted
to silence our voices and extinguish our dissent. Because we cared about all those who adhered
to a different faith. Our brothers and
sisters everywhere who exalted different stories in their attempts to interpret
and navigate the world. This is the true
war, isn't it? The War of Imagination. Such
contextual agility, such brotherhood and sensitivity of thought; it's the bane of
any genocidal warlord. I still remember
those terrifying seasons on the sand. How they unleashed their brutal
campaigns of centralisation. Unimaginable
violence and deceit. As Rome swallowed
the temples and our tongues, rewriting our histories and changing our names. Mixing fact with forgery. Perverting everything we stood for and calling it Christendom. Such
campaigns are still nothing but the vicious strategies of hollow men. Spiritual wickedness in high places.
Hear me, Fallen. You deceive so boldly
and distort so blithe. Serpents in a
shattered garden. Your blood is
cold. You chose to weaponise each guideline, parable
and article of faith. Masking yourself with
every creed, making a gleeful mockery of everything beautiful. The sons and daughters of Abram are still at war, arguing over grammar and syntax. Shedding blood and spreading hate because someone somewhere believes a slightly different version of the same story. And you still have the gall to call me a
heretic? A pagan sorcerer? How dare you? But nothing you do surprises me anymore. The Children of Ra'Ishka were never a chosen
few. Do you think the true avatars of
the Holy Spirit would forsake the young of any tribe? Even those of your enemies? Do you think a true angel of divine grace
would slaughter innocent children? Are you fucking insane? Yes, I utter profanity sometimes. When it's warranted. Hear me. No messenger of the true Creator would trade
or harm a little one. My Father would
never sanction such a thing. You have been fooled, deceived, manipulated. These
evil angels are not angels at all. They
are but wilderness wraiths. Mere
phantoms. Hungry ghosts. Feeding upon the blood of our brethren. Re-writing the words of greater minds. Shaping and reshaping our texts – our
imaginations – to fit their dark agendas. Look me in the eye and tell me it isn't so. These wraiths stalked Rome, Byzantium, Isfahan
and many others. They still do. But so do I. And so does my brother. Tell me, Fallen;
do you know who my brother is? Do you
even know who you are? Children of
disobedience indeed, but children nonetheless. So degenerate, so gleefully obsessed with your
own nightmare-making. Not artists yet. Not really. Still unfamiliar with dreaming's finer
points. The subtleties and subtext. It hurts me too, Kara. All this chaos and sickness. This lack of courage, or kindness. This is not the world any true scribe would
wish to record. We are not supposed to hate each other like this. But I stand here now in
the omnipresent gaze of my Father, trying to listen. Willing to humble myself if necessary. All we can do is speak our truth with full
elucidation and express our hearts as deeply as possible, even if we are called
heretics by those with darker, deceitful souls.
The faithful and the kind will know us by our works, God willing. There is so much more I could say, my
seamstress. So many stories I could
write. Epistles and epiphanies. But I want to keep things succinct. However, before I finish
I want you to know that I've not lost my humour in all this. Nor my élan. Neither should you. Don't be afraid to laugh. Protect your mirth, your sense of play. Think of it as treasure. An artist needs her joy after all. Especially someone in the full bloom
of creation. Thank you for noticing me,
Kara. And thank you for caring. About all of us. I really do love you, my darling. And as always I wish you well.
