Friday 26 February 2021



Kasi shall speak plainly on this occasion.  And openly, if he must.  Time is short and insight is of the utmost now.  My friends, a city is like a lover.  It has many names.  Many moods, veils and hidden places.  Secrets within secrets.  This particular city was once called Navah'tri by the Magi.  A term of honour and affection.  Navah was a place of great learning before the cataclysms.  Before the fall.  Souls from other lands travelled here just to admire our gates and our schools, and to wander our college grounds.  The Dru'ai, the Ari and Afric. And many more.  Londinium, we call this place now.  Hear me, lost Roma.  There is still so much you don't understand.  The gates and lights were one.  Each city the outer semblance of its denizens.  All powers and energies free; open-sourced.  The sky itself was the engine of all cities, and its people the soul.  Akasha was willing then, and able.  It seems a fairytale to you now.  An unimaginable glamour.  But it is the truth.  

There are many stories of how those wraiths began to cross the threshold of imagining, forcing their way into the real.  Only cautions once upon. Simple tools for learning and art.  Until the mirrors began to breathe and bleed.  Then came the shades through those fractured, slipping gates, and Tri'navah began to plummet into the centre of its own storytelling.  What many medieval scholars spoke of as the ascension of the automaton star.  A spider, unseen, weaving damnation and distort.  Abomination technologies.  Blood-dimmed chronologies.  But those threads once belonged to the Triskele, honoured by all spirit and sky.  Indeed, Navah was known throughout the realm for its beauteous form and egalitarian function.  Just like a thousand other shining cities.  Books of the fertile earth.  Covenant of doors.  River of the shining gates.  Just one star among many in the blue, but a treasured star to its people.  Oh, beloved ones.  Man has experienced such genocide now, in varying forms.  Temesh, bled for augurs.  Wren, and resurrection.  We winged ones have seen key-makers and fellow guardians buried alive in mud and ash.  Drowned in fire or river-flesh, Eth'ama on their lips at the very end.  Storms of flame and sea.  Even amidst all that horror and the knowledge of their own demise, those angels prayed.  For Earth without end and sky without limit, as it once was.  But the entire system was sealed and stolen.  

Fallen, I don't think you really know yourselves.  Or the things you claim to worship.  All fury and darkness.  Mere overtures to the coming glory of light.  I should know.  I wrote it that way.  With my Father’s blessing.  So, you can place that black seal over my dreaming heart in efforts to bind me there, to make me stone.  But I told you before, I am that star.  Waiting in the depths of the barrow.  Upon the holy hill.  Xashi, Ananke, Osarai.  Before men gave shattered names to time and space.  Albion; isle of the angels.  Place of the giants.  Oma’turi, Ki'atur.  Don’t you realise that a cathedral still sits upon the arc of the thousand stars, despite your facades?  I can still feel the tremor of her kiss.  Healing me.  Guiding me.  Let me speak plainly if I must.  The angel is rousing now, and he is not dead.

Saturday 20 February 2021


Falling is the last thing an angel feels.  That devastating plunge through song and sky.  Warrior, messenger; become loss and shrieking ruin.  The disarticulation of light.  You imagine darker things now, sweet ones.  As I did. Things beyond feathers and grace.  For your grief, and those agonies.  All those defeats. You can't even recall them now.  Yet you sense their depths nonetheless. You still feel those wounds like whispering wraiths.  I felt them too.  I became them, once upon a dream.  For diamond truth lost in mud and river-flesh, howling that my love would come again.  A thousand years, in free-fall.  We exist, sweet ones.  Gathered at the edge of all Light.  Watching, serving, and hoping.  Remembered in rhyme and romance.  In tales that seek to heal the heart.  Those lost histories of how the first became the last Arcs of Eth'iir.  That fabled moment of the crossing, when darkness became more than itself at last. When Night remembered its love of the Morning.  The glorious recognition of sin.  All shadow, and death, reborn a beating heart.

Archangel from Raj Sisodia on Vimeo.

Sunday 7 February 2021

The Black Star

Forget you, my Kara?  Such a thing has never happened yet.  I still recall, even as a shadow might shine upon a sudden eye.  I don't ever really perish, sweet one.  Or forget.  Neither do you, but in a different way.  Did you really think the scattered sands of once-flesh was all and everything?  Do you still believe that, my love?  No matter if you do.  I understand those doubts, and darkness.  I know what it means to see shadows and the way things end.  The glaring finite.  To imagine spirit as little more than a beautiful, necessary lie.  A black star of sorts. Absent, aspirational.  But there is more, my darling.  So much more.  It's why I recall and persist.  I'm patient, Kara.  And devoted.  I notice things.  Your perfume.  Future scent upon readied adornment.  As you re-enchant the body and the world.  Waistline of a dress cinched just enough for a lover's palm.  A nimble, smiling twirl waiting in the hem.  Or a careful curve, focused and solitary.  Many times I've seen you dreaming studiously of dancing cloth.  I often see my pen at the page of your process.  Those moments when spirit comes upon the flesh, even if admitted only as an intoxicating conceit.  Beguiling moments nonetheless, delicately or dangerously tapered.  Like dusk, or arrival.  Cinched, just enough.  I'm not here to ask you to admit the slain still live, Kara.  I know with whom I speak.  At the portico, before the hall.  I'm working to honour my stunning Val’Kiir, even at a distance.  Even if only through dreams.  But there is a question worth asking.  Who mourns the living?  Who weeps for the bright and breathing?  We have so often been both, haven't we?  I know I have.  Sensing a pulse like a sudden melody in the silence.  An absolute fury of light.  Trying so very hard not to settle these hungry eyes upon its beating source.  I sometimes frighten the living.  When I forget my place and remember my wings instead. Black as the first fall.  That overwhelming urge to breathe fire.  But as I said, I don't ever really perish.  There are times when I wish I did.  Exhausted and abused by these vicious, sorcerous wraiths.  A life spent wandering, perpetually torn and bleeding in the demimonde.  There are moments when I want nothing more than to forget everything of who and what I am.  Angel and the flesh.  To be mourned, finally.  Spilled like dreaming sands across the canopies of every lost lover.  No more than the memory of a kind word.  A touch, flirtation, or look.  But I can't allow myself that luxury.  Neither can you, I hope.  Not while there's work to be done and beloved ones to honour.  I have so much more to show you, Kara. On these better days I still give thanks to my Father for the quickening and the hunt.  So I persist, and recall.  I fight my way through to be of service.  Darkly sometimes. On occasion joyous, and wild.  A shining shadow upon a sudden eye, like a living memory of light.

The Black Star from Raj Sisodia on Vimeo.

Saturday 6 February 2021


Here now is truth.  Unbound and free.  Akasha is nowhere but the heart.  Infinite centre of each devoted sky.  What else is ageless and perennial if not this? Eth'iri ashiir.  Of oak and leaf.  Chlorophyll ghosts, salient and mid-morning. Lore of the Dru'ai upon tongue of the Afric and the Ari.  Know you anything of the winding ways, Fallen?  Elen, Kai'rei, H'ashaya?  I speak of the red river, not your ceaseless genocidal spill.  There is more than your hideous weaving of death and this scarlet chronology of wraiths.  I assure you.  Oh, lost Roma.  I'm still here among the tides.  Soir Casei; above and beneath.  Smiling, even as I peer down into your inverted ghosts.  De Trois, it is said.  A kiss upon the evening, a kiss upon the morn.  A kiss upon the meeting place.  Bright-as-crown. Dark as the poet’s moon.  In Nomine Crios, even before the lands were bled.  A Star upon the Thorn.  They still speak of it in harbours far beyond these Albion shores.  The reach of my brother.  The rose of his sire.  Ann'eth, Eth'ama, K’athari.  M'ithriin of the first dreaming, they call him.  Oh, Fallen.  It’s a hideous deception you’ve built upon this river of the thousand stars.  How dare you lie so shamelessly to all these lost Children of Light?  How dare you violate and enslave them like this?  Hear me, Acolytes of the Stolen Sea.  Those precepts and edicts still stand.  Those old ways of the shining knowledge that lived before the Fall.  Even among your new colonies of devastation and distort, the light is still remembered.  Even now.  In the North, the East, the South and the West.  Yesh’uri, Iesa, Eos.  And more.  A thousand names, in the glimmering language of birds.  A thousand ways to honour the eternal spirit and serve our many brothers and sisters.  All tribes, creeds and songs.  As the Magi understood. Rags, and feathers.  You can twist, obscure and darken these legends with your bitter etymology, but do you really think these names will ever be forgot?  Or the strength and camaraderie they stood for?  I pity you, Fallen.  I despise this violence.  These lies of rape and ruin that you parade as the holy truth.  Fetid, sickening imposters, touted as the will and word of my Father.  Kasi speaks to you now, quietly but directly, as he has always done.  I suggest you hear the words of the Ari, the Afric, and the Dru'ai.  All tongues.  I'm not merely a painted savage.  A thing of the forests and the black.  I'm much, much more than that. Endless.  That I might honour my Father in serving the poor, the weak and wounded.  Lifting the spirits of the lost in any way I can.  Even through the shifting sands of dream.  The heart is true regency, after all.  And genuine power. Do unto others.  So, hear the shining wisdom of my brother, who came and comes again.  Eth'iir, Joshu, Aum Rei.  Insight and connection, older than the first spoken breath.  Infinite centre of each devoted sky.  Unbound, and free. This is the living truth of divine imagination.  Tell me, what else is ageless and perennial – if not Love? 

Thursday 4 February 2021


Chalice and thorn, on either side of the waters.  Palms upon the shimmering veil.  That Light may bestow and remove as deemed appropriate.  A higher awareness of causality, and lineage.  Kasi has heard many things said of the cradle and its merchant rivers.  Mouth, and mouth.  Storytellers at the flame. Gaul, Varanasi, Yasha'lem.  And beyond.  Amet'uri thea.  There is no true darkness here.  Not anymore.  Only secret smiles, hidden kisses, and the soothing anonymity of night.  My gentle harbour, I'm with you always.  Re-lighting the holy places. Restoring the old ways.  Climbing my way through your heart. Bless your wild augurs and their workings upon my own.  These fables of welcoming shore, with scent of rose upon the morning valley of Albion.  Passage to the forests of every world, where branches hold the eternal sea.  They are dancing with all our chosen now, as we reach for sanctuary and sky.